First Entry - The Undomestic Goddess

So what's up with me doing my own blog. I must be so bored. But I never thought that this would happen to me. I've always pictured myself as a corporate goddess :-) willing to take on any challenge in the office and being able to reach the top. I've imagined myself in a bright office with a great view. 

But here I am now. Taking care of my kid. For the past one month I've been unemployed. My company has suspended it's operations and I just chose to be separated from the company. I was supposed to start in another company but I guess God has other plans for me.

So imagine the transition of being a woman who is used to the corporate set up being domesticated all of a sudden. It was alright at first since I had a nanny to whom I get to thank for quick breaks from taking care of my son. But then like any other nannies, she went on a vacation and never returned. She broke up (not literally) with us through text "hanap na lang po kayo ng iba."

 Everyone knows, I'm not the patient kind. I want things done easily and I always want to be in control of something. Imagine dealing with a two year old all of a sudden. A two year old, who doesn't know how to pee, doesn't know how to talk well and cries over anything. I found myself helpless with the things that had to be done over and over again.

 But I thought to myself, if other moms can do it, so can I. So I tried. I tried teaching my kid how to pee. I tried making him eat even if he detests. My husband knew that i was losing it. I couldn't sleep and eat. My mind and my mouth was literally avoiding all the unlikely meals that would be similar to the gross things that I saw. But he kept on reminding me that it's my kid. It does have some advantages. Like seeing him wake up and smiling at me when he sees me. Seeing him learn the basic things that I teach him.

 I prayed each night to have patience. And so for two weeks I did.